Your body is not a house that you have to clean up before guests come. Your body is yours and yours alone. If he doesn’t love you, then he doesn’t love you. Your body is not the offering or the deal you make, okay? I know that feeling, that thought process. Maybe if I just lost the weight, I’d be lovable. Stop it in its tracks. You are the most important person in your life. Love yourself more than the idea of being good enough for someone else. You are a force of nature, okay? Be here. In your body. You’re allowed.
sometimes you can like fat on others and not yourself, and that’s okay. it’s your body, do what you want with it. a great part of body positivity is loving the way you look, but those in the community are human enough to understand it’s easier said than done. for some, it takes longer to happen. for some, it just doesn’t. if you’re uncomfortable with your weight gain, it’s okay try to make healthy choices to lose a little bit (while being realistic about what’s going to happen) and make sure you treat yourself like a human being worthy of love and respect the entire time.
and even if you find fat gross on others and don’t believe in what you’re saying, at least you’re still encouraging people to accept themselves rather than destroying their self esteem.